God didn't create me to crunch numbers

I took off for a much needed vacation. 

I packed the kiddos and the necessities and headed back to

 the land of the Big Sky. 

My intentions have been to

breathe fuller, settle the mind and sleep longer. 

Boy, have I been executing these things wonderfully! 

It is beautiful here in Montana, and I've been enjoying some lovely company! 

I can't wait to show you some pictures! 

Whilst on this vacation and having endured many long hours of driving, including yesterday's trip 2 1/2 hours to Coeur d'Alene, Idaho for some roller coaster fun and a late night drive home again, the mind has been attempting to answer a couple of questions...

Why is it that in life we insist on running till our wheels fall off?  Who can be blamed?  Is it society's fault?  The new-age of technology that tells us that if there is a will, there is a way--to do it all...if we have but the right time-saving gadget?  Is it the longing for a balance between the life of a mother trying to be all for her children and be all for herself that encourages such self-inflicted obligation?  Is it wrong to want to expect so much from myself and for my family? 

It's all so mind bending, and at times heart breaking.

I recall simpler days when life was slow.

When my mind settled upon the questions in my heart, and I took plenty of time to sort them.

It's in my nature to study, sort and do so slowly. 

I don't want it fast.  I want to contemplate curiosities and revel in the beauty.

I can't just hang on hoping that when the ride is over, my hair is still nice and that I'll look pretty.

What's pretty is living the life I was intended to live--

then it doesn't matter how long the ride, how high the loops, how messy the hair, because,

I'm living authentically.

And that's the best way.

Off to sort out the rest,

cbm