A Motif of Struggle 12/19/2008
It may be blatantly obvious, but I’ve just come to the realization that there is a most common motif that haunts my writing. Within the beginning and ends of my posts lies the struggle that the writer in me is suffering. However, I don’t believe this is an uncommon struggle, especially among other mothers, and anyone else who is, as Annie Dillard would say, “balancing life in it’s free-fall.”
It was a depressing day, a couple of years ago after having Brooklynn, that I felt so debilitated to even attempt to live the normalcy of my previous life. Instead my mind would give me cruel flashbacks of all things that I had so incessantly filled my days with, but could no longer catch a break to enjoy. It’s a struggle gathering all of the things that you are--a wife, new mom, friend, daughter, individual, and on the list goes. . .to organize into an order so that you will feel the most rewarded, complete, or just plain old sane. However, I am not sure that if in time, this ever becomes sorted.
So I guess here I am to give one more ode to this motif and explain that the writer in me is still struggling.
What about you? How do you balance all the things you are?
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